HEY GUYZ

I am back. Or, I am gone. I said goodbye to Stockholm (for good![?]) a week and a half ago. I felt so free. Getting everything ready for the move was rather tough though. I guess I had a nervous breakdown or two. My sister was visiting me the last month of my stay in Stockholm and besides also having a lot going on at work I had to entertain her. And in addition I had to get rid of all of my things from the apartment, super exhausting. I can't believe how many clothes I'd managed to collect during those two years in Stockholm. What a nuisance to try to get rid of them. I wish I'd been able to hold a trunk sale or something like that, imagine the money I'd made with all of those clothes. My goodness. I'd be rich!!??!? Another surprise was going through my previous paychecks. I mean, WHERE DID THAT MONEY GO? Seriously? I hardly even traveled anywhere after the Sri Lanka trip in June 2013. Only London, Tenerife and then England again. I can't believe I spent all of that money on things I don't even remember buying. Need to stop spending. July was good nevertheless, the weather's been perfect. How often do we get summers like this up here in Northern Europe!?

And so, Finland. I've spent a week at our summer cottage in the wilderness in Lapland. I was looking forward to a week of quiet but since my little sister and little brother were there too, well, dream on! No quiet for me. It was awesome though and I hope to get to go there again before it's time to move to London. Speaking of which, is this exciting or what! Less than 4 weeks to go!! I've started looking for a job, a gym, street-viewing the area where we'll be living... I'm a bit nervous too, especially since I noticed the (expected) salaries are half of what I'm getting in Sweden. 's gonna be expensive. But, it's an adventure I'm looking forward to a lot. 

These last weeks in Finland I'm going to devote myself to training, dancing and running. And relaxing. No stress. Life is good and now I'm gonna eat food. 

x

Sara

Ooh, and here a song that's been stuck on replay in my head all day for y'all to enjoy.

I follow the sun beyond the horizon.

Hey guys. So sorry we've been abandoning the blog lately. We've all just been busy preparing for the upcoming move. Sara is moving out of the apartment in ONE WEEK and me just two days after her, and the girls are going to London in September. We've all been cleaning out our closets and cabinets selling/throwing and giving away stuff. And packing.

It' so crazy to think that soon it will all be over. It's the end of an era, and a beginning of a whole new chapter. Most exciting for the girls of course, but I'll be having my own adventure with living completely on my own for the first time. Trying to make new friends.

The thing I'm most excited about in all of this madness is that my brother and his wife are finally coming back home. I know they where just here, and I've been able to visit them from time to time, I've still missed them o much! So I'm just going to think about that and not about the fact that my best friend and my roommate are moving away to another country.

So what have we been up to besides all of this moving madness? Pretty much just enjoying the summer as much as possible. Last weekend for example was so great! It's been so warm these past weeks it feels tropical. I went out with my parents with their boat, and even the ocean water is super warm. I love it.
And Friday we where at The Loch and Quay where our a friends band played. I love their music, check them out, they're called BURNhabit.

I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore. We will pick it up again when things calm down a little bit.

Until then, take care.

Love/E.

Don't forget to Breathe

Yo yo peeps. It's been a loooong time since there was anything happening on this blog. The girls have been on vacation and other than that it's been work and life as usual.

This past weekend me and a few other girls surprised our girl Jem with a little party. She's moving on Friday, so we wanted to say goodbye properly. The only thing was just that because it was a surprise she had planed a night for us in the city. But to be able to get her out of the city and to the sister who had the party I had to be a complete B-word and bulldoze over them. She was least to say very mad. Although I knew it was gonna happen I felt so bad. I couldn't even look at her the entire time we where going to his sisters apartment. But she forgave me when she realized it was a party for her :)
We had fun, dancing and singing and jumping around. We will miss her though. I'm lucky, I get to spend time with her in England in August, when we're going to a wedding, since we'll be going together :)

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I can't believe it's already July! Time flies, and it doesn't feel like it's been much of a summer. I've mostly felt like I shouldn't have packed away my winter clothes just yet.

So I joined this challenge through a friend in New York. It's #SimplifyJuly. Everyday for the entire month of July you're supposed to throw out, give away or otherwise get rid of one item you own every day.
I thought this would be perfect now before we move out. I've already been putting away stuff to sell at the flee-market later this month, but for this challenge I'm going to try to throw/give away stuff that I maybe don't want to get rid of, but I don't use/need.
Since it's already July 2nd I need to put away 2 things. So: 1 pair of black high heels and an electronic chocolate melting machine.

The shoes I love, they are so pretty, but unfortunately uncomfortable. And the chocolate melting machine... I've used it like twice. So out they go! I'm going to put these things with the stuff I'll be selling. (Whatever doesn't get sold I'll either give or throw away)

Ok so time to continue cleaning up this mess in my room. There is clothes and stuff ERRYWHERE!

Bye!

Love/ E.

Ps. Leaving you with an awesome song as a bonus.

Because FIFA

Can't say life in Vantaa is all that exciting. Therefore, FIFA14. Wirtanen (the cat) doesn't seem to mind much. Weather's been cold. Yesterday while I was out walking with Hope rain started pouring down from the sky. I thought my jacket was water-proof but surprise! It wasn't. I'm just thankful my cell phone made it back home without being completely soaked.
Oulu was pretty awesome. Loved being at the assembly, feeling extremely encouraged now. It was also really nice seeing many of my old friends and how well they're doing. So so far this trip's been a success. Tomorrow Laura's coming to Helsinki too, can't wait! It'll be fun to hang around in Finland together.
So now I'm gonna go out running in the woods. And hope that crazy kid who was running after me and my brother yesterday with a "gun" pointed at us, doesn't reappear. Cuz that's freaky. #Hoodproblems

x
Sara

Don't let your memories hold you

I have no words for this.

/E.

The loudest scream, is silence - The one you where not supposed to see

May 5th 2014

More and more often I look around me and I'm confused. I feel as if I where a stranger in my own life.

A stranger in my body. A stranger in my home.

(Whatever home is.)

The only place I've felt safe is my bed. But my protector have started to betray me.

The strange world around me is seeping into my dreams. Now I am a stranger even there.

I look at myself and I don't recognize myself. How did I become this? 
This ghost of someone who used to be a real person. Now only a shell.

Insecurities and flaws stitched together with the whispers of a good, once thriving, heart.

Who am I now? Who was I before? 
How did I get here? How do I escape?

Speedballin'

Mä duunaan, mä treenaan, mä elän. Istun partsilla, kuuntelen Chopinia, itken onnesta vähän väliä. Kohta mä lähden. Eka Dalarna, sit Suomi, sit täällä viimenen kuukausi. Mä lähden, mä lähden. Ehkä oon hokenu noita sanoja liikaa, koska nyt mun mieli on jo kaukana täältä. Ihan ku se ei yleensä ois muissa maailmoissa. Mutta nyt mun mieli on muuttanu muualle, eikä se halua tulla takaisin, vaikka mä sitä tarvitsen. Mun mieltä ei paljon enää vaivaa nää ihmiset, nää talot, nää kadut. Mä katson ylös korkeuksiin, taivaalle, ja oon onnellinen, koska mä tiedän, että parempia asioita on tulossa. 

Ja nyt ei kiinnosta muuta ku tehdä piruetteja ja tuntea kaikkea sitä mahtavaa mitä mä tunnen ja olla onnellinen, aidosti. 

x

Sara